SO HARD TO TAKE IT EASY

its nice to listen to current favorite song at the earliest point in time one can say ah what a beautiful morning without being wrong, when a spring sky bleeds pink and orange all over the horizon, and trails of planes at various heights in that painted canvas don't dissipate, and just stay hanging in the air, and the sound of construction hums and bums mining dumpsters for aluminum cans and scraps for snacks startles a lone cardinal perched at the tip of a branch on a magnolia tree in the middle of the university oval--to just contemplate life through puffs and drags of a cigarette without any intention of resolving the infinite contradictions life presents, as a warm breeze executes its serenity all over me.

it's very easy to stay up throughout a night, to stay up all through it until sunrise, to find yourself on a porch smoking a cigarette frantically, when something is missed, or someone, for that matter.

it's also easy to forget who you are, where you are, what you are, when you are, how you are, during the listening of an amazing song. easy to become absent, or nothing, in the reading of an epic poem, or in the certain recognition that some man or woman has been able to express with near perfect language all the thoughts and feelings which inhabit your own mind and soul and spirit. also, easy to become nothing when watching the sunrise, smoking a cigarette.

but, on the other hand, it's hard to listen to an amazing song and forget who you are when staying up late at night missing something, or especially, someone.

but change is constant and happens instantaneously. so it makes it hard to focus less on the past and less on the future, to get to the stuffs which really matters: that immediate present when hard or easy isn't a question yet, life is just lived.

because all these atoms which are directly in front of us and around us are atoms of the rolling thundering waves of a distant waterfall in South America, of the sprawling desert sands in Africa, of stars exploding in the heavens, light years away, atoms which never stay still, are never the same, are always changing, transforming, becoming something more beautiful, hopefully.

we need to remember that is why life is so complicated, because all the things we think are solid and structured and stay the same (especially the people we love), absolutely do not do that. absolutely nothing stays the same; haven't we learned that already?

look at me, now. already, i'm different, i've changed.

go on ... be different; change, too.