LOVE VIGILANTE

it has been 7 months since the break-up. how time flies. i am single but it doesn't mean i don't love or care for someone, and it doesn't mean that others don't love and care for me. what is most important, anyway, is to love yourself first before you love someone else. it's good to know who you are, and to be comfortable with all the things that are not you - because what's not you makes you. but i am extremely happy being in Phil's body, having his thoughts, being moved by the things that move him, smiling at the things that make him smile. i am glad that i am here in this body because Phil is a good guy. and the fact that i am happy with myself, confident and understanding of my powers, and limitations, i don't have so much to worry about and so i can truly help and focus on others. if, during a week-span, i have made one person giggle or smile to themselves, or have them think of me in a beautifully complimentary way, i can keep going living life and being happy not thinking about civil war in Somalia, or the endless poverty happening in the ghettos, or the crazy conservative extreme fundamentalist christians bringing down our country, or the fact that i do not have a "girlfriend."